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Lost And Found, Demos, Live, & Rare Recordings From Europe 2012​-​2015 (2LP)

by Bee Appleseed

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What is this form that I have taken? I do not recall asking for this But now I’m here, I am alive; I have dreams to realize And though it’s a very heavy burden of life, I must try Yeah, I must try to live or be ready to die So now I’m dying to live Oh this must be life Oh this must be life Oh this must be life And how much water is in your well? To put out the fire that’s in your hell? Well, it’s not about the problems that you know It’s how you cope It's how you cope And I’ve spent my existence just trying to be happy And though that may be unrealistic, I’m still going to try For we can be a waste and let ourselves down Or do nothing about it and hope that it all works out But that’s not the answer that I’ve come to realize And I’m dying to live Oh this must be life Oh this must be life Oh this must be life And how much water is in your well? To put out the fire that’s in your hell? Well, it’s not about the problems that you know It’s how you cope It's how you cope
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A mediocre character, nothing special here No gift for enchantment, no delight in the mirror Just a slim, fruitless being or an ordinary pawn But you’ll be the talk of the town after you’re gone In passing you quietly, they never look twice Not sought for your thoughts, much less your advice You could be completely naked, but they’d still look on But you’ll be the talk of the town after you’re gone So who are then? You must be new here Oh I never would have guessed that you’ve been around for years Well maybe I’ll see you though probably not Until you're the talk of the town after you’re gone Now you’ve got something happening, but there’s something else to do Oh I made other plans and they don’t include you But perhaps maybe the next time if there’s nothing else going on Until there won’t be a next time after you’re gone And I heard you had aspirations, had something up your sleeve But until they are realized, you’re just a child with a dream But if you’re not here with the rise of the sun You’ll be the talk of the town after you’re gone Now the clock’s adding time and you’re counting down the days Until your absence is apparent and they'd wish that you had stayed So you try to announce that you’re the chosen one But you’ll only be the talk of the town after you’re gone Now I heard you were someone, but I had no idea Why didn’t you shout it from the heavens so we’d know that you were here? You just seemed so ordinary until we saw what you had done And you’re the talk of the town now that you’re gone So when are you returning? We miss you so much We always adored you and all that you touched You had a golden grace, just ask anyone For you’re the talk of the town now that you’re gone
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Living true and free, won't you tell me what that means? How can I be a winner like you? I'm just a man from The States, so won't you show me your ways? Oh can't you see I haven't got a clue? Can you repeat that? Can you repeat that please? Can you repeat that? Isn't it obvious nothing's obvious to me? Can you repeat that? Can you repeat that please? Can you repeat that? And maybe this time I'll understand what you mean I'm no longer in the need for self-discovery So won't you please tell me more about you? I've got all the time on my hands so please tell me about your plans Oh isn't it obvious I'm understanding too? Can you repeat that? Can you repeat that please? Can you repeat that? Isn't it obvious nothing's obvious to me? Can you repeat that? Can you repeat that please? Can you repeat that? And maybe this time I'll understand what you mean And I'm not one of a kind I'm just another who can't seem to get it right And I've learned a lot in this life But I guess the application just never came to mind Can you repeat that? Can you repeat that please? Can you repeat that? Isn't it obvious nothing's obvious to me? Can you repeat that? Can you repeat that please? Can you repeat that? And maybe this time I'll understand what you mean
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Gone but not forgotten Alive but not a lot and I am living on the edge of a dream A foreigner in a city But it's ok because it's pretty And beauty speaks every language fluently And I feel I've live more than most But not enough to boast for I am no better I'm just existing differently And perception is subjective Though vision can be selective Providing explanation for different beliefs
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I tasted the sweet fruit of serenity And beauty was lingering at its core There was a promise that was made to the morning Though the sincerity of which, I’m not sure But I who have hung around your stations And contemplated boarding every train Those that have caused me to ponder the infinite As I do not shy away from thinking this way But again I digress to my reflections I about face to the future tense I deliver myself from my transgressions And I hold dearly to wandering wind For I did not come here to make a masterpiece Nor to fool you into thinking I may For was it not I you embraced with humanity? Who taught to love with the passion of razor blades? But the beauty of your Lord often takes many forms Sometimes kneeling and others bowed down “But I” I said then, “could never lie at the hem Of a God who has not tried his experiments” Yet again I digress to my reflections I about face to the future tense I deliver myself from my transgressions And I hold dearly to wandering wind Then noticing the clock that was ticking Must have been doing so all evening And the darkness would soon attract the cold So “I”, I said kindly, “must depart if you don’t mind me Before these fruits ripen to soften to mold.” But again I digress to my reflections I about face to the future tense I deliver myself from my transgressions And I hold dearly to wandering wind
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Feeling down, been spun around Once again I bear the weight Counting the times I wake up to find The sky the same shade of grey I'm not alone in how I feel, But the though seems so real sometimes Holding my breath yet I can't forget The way things used to rhyme But you, oh who are you and where have you been? But you, oh who are you and where have you been? Life transitions can be so hard Falling in and out of love What was it I was supposed to do? Oh did I do it well enough? Is there a right way or a wrong way? Or just how much of a fit? Couldn't feel more uncertain Couldn't feel more outlived But you, oh who are you and where have you been? But you, oh who are you and where have you been? But you, oh who are you and where have you been? But you, oh who are you and where have you been? Oh you, oh who are you and where have you been? Oh you, oh who are you and where have you been?
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A chance encounter With a perfect stranger Upon destiny, who was I to intrude? A future lost and A dream forgotten My life existing without the ones that I never knew Those loving feelings That I’m not feeling A heart not broken in two Those endless hours And unbought flowers A steaming kettle not left long enough to brew And all the best to you in all that you do You’re the reason to stay that I’ve left behind A torch not burning Two hearts not yearning No tears felt protruding through the phone No longing passions Or guilty attractions No comparisons for a current state alone So remember me when Your mind is screamin’ That you chose the wrong fork in the road And I’ll be out there With your same prayer When the memory is all that I can hold And all the best to you in all that you do You’re the reason to stay that I’ve left behind And I’ve found time to be the meaning of life Moving on after another frame has died Recycled into an unforgotten shrine Of the moments once possible to find And all the best to you in all that you do You’re the reason to stay that I’ve left behind
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The moment was so perfect while it lasted But the expirations seem to be all I know to collect Strolling down memory lane I keep going past it Analyzing and reanalyzing when there's nothing really nothing to dissect And I'm only let down because I let you And I'm only let down because I let you And I'm only let down because I let you Build me up And how come so much of my life is so dependent On finding someone with whom it could be shared? Thinking time is so valuable until you spend it Wondering if you would have been better off not even being there And I'm only let down because I let you And I'm only let down because I let you And I'm only let down because I let you Build me up And how many honest sorrys will it take? And how many honest sorrys will it take? And how many honest sorrys will it take? To make me feel whole Again And I'm only let down because I let you And I'm only let down because I let you And I'm only let down because I let you Build me up
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Your eyes upon the rose I'm naked and you're clothed You did the laundry and hung my heart on the line And there are words to express The emotions we digest But I read ahead so you stopped the time And we're so bad, bad, bad Bad at being in love so bad, bad, bad Bad at being in love And my plane was leaving town But you stayed on the ground You never could afford to fly anyway But you entertained the thought Until you drew first and shot I was surprised you'd think better of my place And we're so bad, bad, bad Bad at being in love so bad, bad, bad Bad at being in love And this water knows how to reflect The things I seem to neglect What's a moment like this to the sea? Yet I can't help but regret Every word I've ever said It's the poison of being born free And we're so bad, bad, bad Bad at being in love so bad, bad, bad Bad at being in love
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Streets are empty Ruins aplenty Hopes left out to dry Fear for safety Lucky if maybe We get out of here alive Holding our breath for the grace of mercy Holding our breath pleading for security Holding our breath trying to keep our dignity Holding our breath all longing to be free Danger lurking So undeserving Trying just to make sense of the pain Can you help us? We don't mean to be a burden The matter is not by choice Holding our breath for the grace of mercy Holding our breath pleading for security Holding our breath trying to keep our dignity Holding our breath all longing to be free Oh can't you spare a little bit of humanity? Oh can't you spare a little bit of decency? Oh can't you tell it's all for our lives that we flee? Oh can't you tell we just want to be free? Holding our breath for the grace of mercy Holding our breath pleading for security Holding our breath trying to keep our dignity Holding our breath all longing to be free
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I have bore witness to events that are not my business While exercising persistence and unintentionally improving fitness For it is not my mission to arrive in this position To talk as people listen for I am but a simple musician And I fear the future moving in While striving for perfection under constant dissection Others seeking motivation but end up with frustration Show me a saint who’s not a sinner or justified faith in a beginner An answer to all our problems from that new face whom wants to solve them Still I fear the future moving in For it doesn’t matter which platform you support Nor the reasons that you purport As each is but a stone in the wall Just elected to fall So look upon those with power, once obtained becoming sour Perhaps a mission cast upon us, to not keep what they promise Or maybe the position overwhelming, unaware of what they’re selling And you can say what you will, still you’re stuck with the bill And I fear the future moving in Finding solidarity demanding change, but none can be arranged Still having to work within the system, even though you are against them Trying to flee from oppression, but it’s in every direction And you may think you have some time still, but history works in cycles And so I fear the future moving in For it doesn’t matter which platform you support Nor the reasons that you purport As each is but a stone in the wall Just elected to fall
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Man wakes up 7:30 in the morning Breaks up with the woman of his dreams Takes the train downtown and elevator up And he's stare all day at a 30 inch screen And the hours pass and the minutes get longer And the coffee burns at the bottom of the pot And the elevator goes from the top of the building To the bottom of the building and then back to the top Saying "tell me, can I get a witness?" Oh one of these day's I'm gonna run up and quit this Middle Class Clown coming down with the sickness Oh this rat race is really none of my business So "tell me, can I get a witness?" Oh one of these day's I'm gonna run up and quit this Middle Class Clown coming down with the sickness Oh this rat race is really none of my business, oh no Oh no, oh no, oh no And down on the street there's a man with a paper cup Laying down beats, just trying to keep his spirits up He's drumming on a trash can, trying to make a living But it's every 3.50, 40 ounces, bottoms up And the hours pass, the days get longer And the rain trickles down to the bottom from the top And the people walk by and they can't even pay And he'll spend all night at the Greyhound stop Saying, "tell me, what did I do to deserve this?" Slipping through the cracks in the sidewalk surface All this pressure makes a man lay his head on a curb this Is no kinda life, you know this is not my purpose So "tell me, what did I do to deserve this?" Slipping through the cracks in the sidewalk surface All this pressure makes a man lay his head on a curb this Is no kinda life, you know this is not my purpose, oh no Oh no, oh no, oh no Housewife in a black dress, married young Sipping on her third cocktail in her new high heels And her husband does well, but she can't stand herself And money cannot buy words for the way she feels And the days get shorter and the years get longer And the kids want something or another non stop And she thinks of the pills in the bottle when she listens To the dripping of the faucet and the ticking of the clock Saying, "take me to the man behind the curtain, Born to be more than the beast of your burden Or the labor and pain, is this the fruit of the servant I give and I give, what do I get for my hurtin'? So "take me to the man behind the curtain, Born to be more than the beast of your burden Or the labor and pain, is this the fruit of the serpent? I give and I give, what do I get for my hurtin'? So run, come, smash down the system I don't want to play for the innocent victim I see big wheel turnin' burns with friction Picking up speed for a head on collision, oh no!
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If you’re waiting for a miracle or something good to happen You might be waiting for your whole entire life For there is no promised land and if you see two footprints in the sand It’s quite possible one’s from your other personality And I once believed in God but now I find it so odd That people who have nothing cling to it in another form But if that works well for them, then I really don’t have a problem As long as they politely distance their judgments from me And you don’t have to be a scientist to explain away the world But if you don’t understand something, it doesn’t mean it’s magical And if you don’t believe me, then why do you choose to believe In an invisible man controlling your destiny? Now I once was lost but now I am found By reason and logical thinking For I talked to the sky, but I’m still awaiting a reply And I probably will be for the rest of my life And while your kind thoughts are nice, wishful thinking does not change lives It just shows your unwillingness to actually do anything So you can cast your hopes out to the wind, but when it changes direction Will you or your god be responsible for your fate? And you don’t have to be a scientist to explain away the world But if you don’t understand something, it doesn’t mean it’s magical And if you don’t believe me, then why do you choose to believe In an invisible man controlling your destiny? And I’ll hope you are well when I see you at the gates of hell And we realize we were both wrong and laugh about it But we only have these lives to lead And there is no eternity There’s just these forms we see At least that’s what I believe At least that’s what I believe At least that’s what I believe At least that’s what I believe At least that’s what I believe And you don’t have to be a scientist to explain away the world But if you don’t understand something, it doesn’t mean it’s magical And if you don’t believe me, then why do you choose to believe In an invisible man controlling your destiny?
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From a small town in the countryside Knowing if I stayed they'd bury me alive Lucky for me I got out just in time Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Feet so heavy I can barely stand Everything is according to mysterious plans Cause my dreams never told me that I can't Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Mama, won't you carry me home? Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Mama, home for me is on the road So Mama, won't you carry me home? Everything I own is on my back Got no burdens nor dreams that I lack Nothing I need I forgot to pack Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Been around so long I forgot where I am Makes it hard when asking directions Try to show me where to go without using your hands Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Mama, won't you carry me home? Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Mama, home for me is on the road So Mama, won't you carry me home? Second hands and one-night stands Each roadmap is a change of plans Each entrance is an exit for another man Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Never was into old folk songs That you can make up as you go along Guess the next line for you can't be wrong Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Oh Mama, won't you carry me home? Mama, home for me is on the road So Mama, won't you carry me home? Home, is on, the road So tell me how to dream and I'll tell you where to go! Oh Mama, won't you carry me home?
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As soon as we met I knew you were One of my kind Arrived just in time Now you're on my mind, Oh you're on my mind You're on my mind The city made the backdrop And our shadows less defined In how the evening was designed In all the moments that we keep in mind And I hope that someday Somewhere down the road I will return to find these memories Just as beautiful I used to see my life metaphorically as the sun So slow to rise but before you know it, oh it's all gone It's all gone The mind reflects the infinite To see what it can weave As a voice ripples through the silence Proposing that we are what we perceive And I hope that someday Somewhere down the road I will return to find these memories Just as beautiful Oh but the beauty of the moment that I found Oh but the beauty of these moments that I found Oh the beauty of the moment that I found Is that it only lasts for so long And I hope that someday Somewhere down the road I will return to find these memories Just as beautiful
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Soon after we first met, you joked I'd write you a song And I said I probably would if you stuck around that long Though the words would come easier if everything had gone wrong Oh but that's not the case oh that's not the case at all And I wanted to sing how I felt but I didn't know how As if my heart was disconnected from my brain and my mouth Maybe feeling afraid I couldn't think of the words that I should I first wrote "if I could write you into a song, I would" And now you're away with your parents and I'm realizing the truth You said that all of my friends here are just you And I haven't left my place since the day that you left Though these tendencies I had long before we ever met And even now that you like me, I'm still trying to impress I guess I get my validation from those I like most and respect But you said it's not a matter of how you feel For though opinions are important, it's what I think that's real And this caused an epiphany from advice I'd never taken For I'm 25 years old yet still seeking direction On how to feel about myself, but it should be my own game to play Yet I'm still waiting by the telephone just to hear what you have to say And I thought I'd wasted all my good ideas on previous relationships But I still have so much oh I still have so much oh I still have so much Left to give And it goes without saying that I think you're adorable So it's probably not necessary to mention how much I think you're cute And if you weren't in my live I'd probably be so much more productive But I couldn't care to do anything when I'm with you And now I've changed the rhyme scheme but I'm not changing the subject For I need ABAB for the holy literary repetition Because AB's what you call me; your American boy And it's totally stupid but this and everything else you do, everything you do, everything you do, Just reaffirms my Aforementioned notion And I thought I'd wasted all my good ideas on previous relationships But I still have so much oh I still have so much oh I still have so much Left to give
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Nothing makes me feel more at home than you do

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released June 4, 2021

all songs recorded somewhere in Europe during 2012-2015. Artwork by Folke Patron (Dennis Johnansson). Cover photo by Guillaume Ohz in Lindesberg, Sweden May 2014. Mastered by Andrew Endres at AEIOU Studios in Portland, Oregon May 2021.

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Bee Appleseed is a prolific songwriter, music producer, multi-instrumentalist, poet, singer, comedian, and seasoned vagabond from Canby, Oregon, living in Los Angeles, California.

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